Even though I’ve remained diligent in my time with God, I’ve found myself in moments where it felt like I was merely going through the motions. Truthfully, I am still in that place, wondering why. I’ve searched for understanding, asking questions, but received no clear answer—until this morning.
Today, my prayer time turned into a crying session, though I couldn’t pinpoint the reason for my tears. At first, I thought I was upset with my husband—about something he didn’t even realize he had done. But instead of speaking negativity over my marriage, I simply sat in silence, tears falling, asking the Holy Spirit to bring clarity to my thoughts and take my sorrow as my prayer.
Eventually, I drifted to sleep and was awakened by a dream—something I haven’t experienced in a long time. This left me questioning my current spiritual state. As I wrote down my dream and pondered its meaning, I prayed against the negativity, as I always do with my night visions. Yet, my heart longed for deeper understanding. Then, I heard the words Amos 8:8 in my spirit.
For context, I read the entire chapter, then continued studying and researching. That’s when I realized—God was speaking about spiritual famine. It made me reflect: Had I been experiencing a spiritual famine without even realizing it?
Let me ask you, dear reader—have you ever found yourself in a situation like this? Truthfully, I believe the church at large is facing this very struggle without recognizing it. In today’s world, churches often dilute the Word of God, avoiding offense rather than standing firm in biblical truth. Sound doctrine is being abandoned, replaced with teachings that cater to itching ears. But I digress—let me return to my own experience.
What does spiritual famine look like on a personal level? Could it be an inconsistency in Bible study and prayer? A lack of obedience? Oh no—could that be it? Lord, is there something You’ve asked of me that I have yet to do? Abba, have mercy.
Even though I’ve maintained my spiritual practices, I’ve sensed an urgent need to inquire about the state of my heart. And God answered—through my tears. He truly holds our tears in His hands (Psalm 56:8).
I am still uncertain whether Amos 8 was directed at my personal spiritual condition or connected to the individuals in my dream. But I choose to examine myself through that lens. By God’s grace and with the help of the Holy Spirit, I will make whatever changes are necessary.
I encourage you, dear reader, to pause and assess where you are in your walk with God. Ask Him to realign your heart with His will—so that together, we may hunger for His truth, rather than experience spiritual famine.
Shalom 🙏🏼
Iamsosasmama ❤️
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