Can one ever fully heal from childhood trauma? While I believe complete healing is possible, a part of us may always be susceptible to triggers. Our response to these triggers, however, is entirely within our control. I often speak of how far God has brought me through life’s challenges, and it’s a testament to His grace. What could have broken me as a child and wrecked me as an adult has, instead, shaped me into a better person, thanks to the healing work I’ve allowed God to do. I am, and will remain, a work in progress until God calls me home.
This reflection stems from an experience this week. Receiving an old photo of myself at age 11 or 12 unexpectedly brought back childhood memories and triggered emotions I hadn’t felt in a while. The feeling persisted even during Bible study, where a statement from my teacher led to a profound realization. A familiar word suddenly resonated differently, offering a deeper understanding of why we face challenges and how they never catch God by surprise. In fact, what we endure often serves a divine purpose. This means my traumatic childhood, too, has a purpose. While I’ve understood this before, a fresh reminder was needed.
Driving home from Bible study, tears flowed freely, and I didn’t question why. A fleeting thought of self-judgment — “If you’ve healed, why the tears?” — was quickly silenced. I thanked God and acknowledged that returning to therapy might be beneficial. At home, I revisited the old photo, zooming in on the happy, innocent little girl. I told my husband she was the 12-year-old me, immature yet yearning to be a child. I described those moments as the happiest of my life, where I felt truly free. The tears returned, and I quietly excused myself to the bathroom. Looking in the mirror, I questioned the sudden rush of emotion, then began to thank God for guiding me so far.
In essence, healing from trauma is a non-linear process. God often highlights areas in our lives that still need attention, not because we haven’t healed or aren’t healing, but because of where He is leading us. Incomplete healing can become a barrier to further growth. As I always say, I am a work in progress, and God isn’t finished with me yet. I am profoundly grateful that everything is working together for my good and for His ultimate purpose.
Shalom, 🙏🏼
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