The Bummer Lamb

I’ve been deeply moved by the story of the “Bummer Lamb,” and it’s a message I feel compelled to share widely. It has inspired a video and countless conversations, and now, today’s blog post. My hope is that as you read and reflect on this piece, you’ll find a personal connection to the story and experience the Father’s love on a more profound level, just as I have.

In many ways, I see myself in the “Bummer Lamb”—feeling dejected, rejected, abandoned, and unloved. My own struggles with meanness, insecurities, and aloofness, which I now recognize as signs of a broken spirit due to past trauma, were often perceived as weaknesses or “issues” I needed to resolve. Yet, all I truly longed for was to be seen and loved.

But then, the Good Shepherd, Jehovah Elroi, saw beyond my outward appearance. He drew me close, nurturing and restoring me. He cared for my every need, holding me close enough to hear His heartbeat. He showed me that despite my brokenness and a distorted perception of my world, I was deeply loved.

This experience led me to a powerful truth, allowing me to walk boldly in wholeness and embrace the person God has called me to be. I am still a work in progress, and will continue to be until Jesus’ return or when He calls me home. However, I am extremely grateful that I am no longer the broken person I once was. I am that “Bummer Lamb” who now knows she is dearly loved, and who listens and follows the voice of the Good Shepherd.

“My sheep listen to my voice. I know them and they follow me.” – John 10:27 (GNT)

Shalom 🙏🏼

Iamsosasmama ❤️

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Choosing Convenience with God

At my church, we’re currently in a teaching series on choices. This past Sunday, as my pastor was preaching and I was processing the message, I turned to my husband and said out loud, “When it comes to God, we choose convenience.”

Being the supportive husband he is, he encouraged me to write it down, adding that it was a powerful summary. And in that moment, I thought, “This would make a great topic for the blog this week.” So here we are.

Let me ask you: Why do we so often choose convenience when it comes to the things of God?

Scripture clearly tells us to  “seek first the Kingdom of God”(Matthew 6:33), yet so many times, we put everything else first. We pour our energy into dreams, desires, and goals, and then come to God only when we are drained and exhausted. I’ll be the first to admit that I am guilty of this too.

But here’s the truth: if God is not our first, everything else is out of order.

A Call to Wisdom

Recently, the Holy Spirit challenged me to study wisdom. At first, I thought it was interesting and honestly, I was curious. As always, I prayed for fresh understanding and asked God to strip away any sense of familiarity, because familiarity can cloud judgment.

As I studied, one truth leapt off the page:

Wisdom is knowing what to do and actually doing it.
If you know what is right but choose not to do it, Scripture says you are a fool.

Ouch. That one hit me hard.

I found myself praying for mercy, asking God to redirect my steps back to His will. I realized I can only succeed if God is at the center of everything I do. After all, He is the one who gave me these desires in the first place, so why do I sometimes act like I can fulfill them without Him?

No More Convenience

Beloved, our relationship with God cannot be built on convenience. There’s too much at stake. He deserves our full surrender, our full attention, and our full hearts.

The way we are called to live is already written clearly in His Word. It’s time we stop settling for convenience and start living in obedience.

Let’s get our act together. Let’s seek Him first. Let’s do right by His Word.

Shalom 🙏🏼

Iamsosasmama ❤️

Forgive as you have been forgiven…

Are you holding a grudge? About?

No I am not. Allow me this opportunity to share a thought about forgiveness: It’s a powerful act that can free your heart, regardless of whether you feel the other person deserves it. Holding onto unforgiveness can feel like drinking poison and hoping the other person suffers, when they might not even be aware of the impact of their actions.